Silver linings...

Choosing me….

I feel like most of my life I have done what others expected from me even if it went against what my  heart wanted for myself….  At 42 I will no longer choose my path based on what others think I should do, say or be. Of course, I love my loved ones and I respect their opinions but at this point in my life, I want (and need) to be true to myself.

Follow your heart...
Follow your heart…

I married young and spent more than a decade married to a man who was quite often condescending to me. I allowed him to to make all of our most important life choices.  Even when my heart tugged me to a different choice, I allowed him to choose the path of our lives.

When he left me and my children because of an affair with one of his fellow officers, I was crushed but did not give myself enough time to truly heal. I didn’t allow myself to open my own heart to my  expectations.  I remarried too soon thinking that was what was expected of me… I couldn’t see that I matter on my own and not only as part of a “team”…

Be true to yourself...
Be true to yourself…

I’ve been on my own now for awhile and I’ve come to realize that the truth of the matter is we need to follow our hearts— whether in a relationship or not.  For the first time in my 42 years, I am truly happy. Not everyday is filled with sunshine and roses… I have my fair share of troubles and trials, but I am happy. I am content with my heart. I have hopes, dreams and goals that bring me joy and give me purpose.  I am happy for those around me that have found happiness with themselves and a life partner, but as for me…. I choose me. And that makes me Happy.

 

7 Comments

  1. You are so strong! Thank you for sharing your story. It really is so important that we love and take care of ourselves first. Otherwise, how can we possibly help those around us?

    1. Thanks so much Stephanie!!

  2. Thanks Zoey! 🙂

  3. Truly beautiful – thanks for sharing your hardships and how you were as an end result. Really glad you found some happiness! Hope it stays that way xo

  4. Yes! I absolutely agree! It is so important to be true to you no matter if you’re in a relationship or not. You need to care for you, you only get one life. We should all want to say we lived it to our fullest and that we are and were happy. It’s not always easy, that’s life, right? But hey, trying can sure be worth the ride. As long as it is what you want. Compromise is one thing when you’re with someone but it shouldn’t take everything. I am glad you are happy and finding your way. This is a good lesson/reminder for everyone, no matter their age.

    1. Thank you Letitia!! 🙂

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